little me

That Tall Dude. -FinaH LudbA

Shahirah McCreery — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 16:49:39 +0000

There’s this tall dude.

He is shy.

He is 17.

He is Indian & Muslim.

He’s was alive since 25/11/94.

He has a huge ego.

He is nice.

And duhh, NA CHO-A YO!

PotassiumBYE!

Na domunomunomu cho a!

Shahirah McCreery — Sun, 12 Jun 2011 07:48:18 +0000

당신을 사랑합니다.

난 항상 함께 우리의 꿈.

모두 재미와 아름다운 것들을 지내요.

그 때가 아직 그렇게 기다 리 겠소 아니 지금은 알아요.

나는별로 당신을 사랑합니다 어떻게 말하고 싶어.

당신은 내 마음이 녹고있다 !

Being SIXteen.

Shahirah McCreery — Wed, 08 Jun 2011 08:00:23 +0000

Im 16 and 3 months. WOAH. Yeah,being 16 is great and all but can be dampening at times! Raging hormones,piling school work, friendships, family and the list goes on. These days my brain have been invaded with the ‘guy’ topic. Yes,its normal according to teachers but this feeling sucks! Well,i guess its all part and parcel of puberty? And then comes school work. Uh-huh, the big Os is just around the corner and i want to do well and with that comes the tsunami of assignments. Yup. 24 stacks of mathematics smacked onto my brains. Like that is not enough, there still is this REALLY thick stack of Additional Mathematics,English and Science. Now moving on to the fun topic, FRIENDSHIP! Its been kind of great. We now dont get to spend much time together so whenever we get the time, we make full us of it and yea,its still Sabrina,Alfiah and Me~! And now..family. Generally as a whole huge family including cousins and all, its AWESOME but my immeditae family has not had its smooth dose of life. Brother has been out of control for some time and mum and dad get so stressed up about this. Sometimes, i feel useless as an elder sister. Like there is nothing much i can do..but at other times,i just feel like yea,this thing is just out of my handling capability. Luckily and hopefully, i think something daunted against brother and he has promised to change. I hope he sticks to his words because after all that ruckus and big HOO-HAA about things, this should serve as a lesson learnt. Thank Allah. May we be only happy from now on

Now,moving on more into me..,im applying for Direct School Admissions to several Colleges and i hope it’d be approved soon. I aimed to go to Raffles Girls’ Sec but didnt get to and now im aiming for a good College and i MUST get in. I dont mind the travelling distance no matter how far. For once,im determined to chase my dreams. Wish me luck,page. Heard the latest news? Scotty McCreery clinching idols season 10?! Bet you didnt so you’ve got to hear me out. Scotty McCreery has a deep and sexy voice and he is a country guy. That is one hot guy! haha. Yeah,i have been listening to his songs over and over again and i cant seem to get over it. I JUST LOVE SCOTTY! Cant wait for his first album to be released~ Then…we’ve got my new tuition chapter. Im officially out of Wayne Jones Eduhouse and am currently receiving 1-to-1 tuition from Arriter Tuition Agency. Costs a bomb but i really appreciate that mummy is willing to pay for it. I hope to gain as much knowledge from Ms Sheryl Lee. Okay last thing and this is gonna sound so very werird,but heck it, only you’ll read. So..Recently i have been having thoughts about joining the police force. I know right, joke of the year! No,not considering the physical fitness part but instead considering the fact that i like to stick to law and i can assure people stick to law and i can also detect crimes! COOLIO. Yes,sometimes i feel smarter that the Central Narcotics Bureau personnel. Its because. i know like over 50 cases of teenagers getting involved in smoking and what not which arent tracked down by the CNB! I have this feeling i need to be the extra voice in there. Can i? Hmm… So far i have been the Head of Moral Department in school ensuring school rules are adhered and also have caught schoolmates soking,stealing and etc. Will my dream or probably not dream,probably thoughts,come true? God knows. Till here!

Being 15 aint all that great.

Shahirah McCreery — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 16:36:31 +0000

At 15, every single thing you do would shape you future. probably your friends would be your bffs until you’re a grown up. Sometimes you feel out when your friend has progressed further or faster,leaving you behind. Everyone has to go catch their dream. Nothing shall be an obstacle to them. On the other hand, you who have been left behind desperately wants to pick up but can’t without support. I think in Singapore,the students mentality is similar to everyone else in their class by Secondary 3,right? Like the best class has the most hardworking people and they would usually be the ones who top exams. Im certainly agreeable with them being that way as that is the reason why they end up in the best class but from my perspective,its really,really hard to keep up with this stereotype-d society. Its like you tend to be the exact copyright of the people who you have been stereotyped with and thus, can’t fit in to others who are stereotyped separately. Well, just like my case. Sabrina & Alfiah are really greatly respected by me for being able to balance everything and thus making it to the elite class. For a reason which is so very clear,im like in the mediocre class and i feel so odd with them nowadays. Its like this year seems like the most dampening year of our friendship. For the first time there were like 2 rows in a row. Lots of foiled plans. Lots of i-don’t-know-how-to-explain feelings. I really love them & all i want is to spend more time with them. I KNOW,studies is like the most important thing right now but can you guys at least give yourselves a break? It breaks my heart to see how we like live our lives pretty much separately nowadays. In any case,i LOVE you two.. =)

Are you afraid of death?

Shahirah McCreery — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 15:49:49 +0000

Death. Everyone dreads that word. Yet it is the thing that would happen to everyone of us human beings.According to scientists,2012 would be the end of the world. I refuse to believe as i feel that the fate of this world is in the hands of God Almighty. Be it 2012 or 2120,I am afraid. What if i haven’t accomplished everthing i want in life yet? What if there was’nt time for me to repay my sins with kind deeds? What if the world suddenly ended and I haven’t love everyone enough yet? I fear death. That’s for sure.

Having dreams of my loved ones dying are the worsts of my dreams.I just can’t imagine life without them. Yet,it IS going to happen. Regardless of strength on earth,we will all resign to fate in afterlife. So,sometimes i wonder,what the need to work so hard and accomplish high status in society when in the end,we have to resign to our fate from God? Ain’ it a total waste of time…?

The three of us.Shahirah,Alfiah&Sabrina

Shahirah McCreery — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 09:47:58 +0000

Its almost 2 years now that we are close friends. We went through a rollercoaster before we ended up in a peaceful and lovable friendship. Many things happened but only the three of us perservered and now,we’re enjoying our friendship.Sabrina and Alfiah are very special to me and one very interesting though unbelievable fact is that we have never gotten into a heated arguement or a tiff. It is just too hard to do so as we love each other dearly. Now that i am going to a different class from the two of them,i would like to say thank you for all the love so far and also,i hope that they will not forget me and that we will be best friends for eternity and beyond. I believe that we are three special girls sent down by god to be best friends and great sisters to one another.The common thing about all three of us is that we’re humble and we love helping the needy.If we’re not meant to be together,then what are we meant to? Lastly,to my dearest friends,I LOVE YOU guys alot.

My friend,please come back.

Shahirah McCreery — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 12:03:28 +0000

Dear Friend,

I still remember the first time i heard about you.Its close to a year now that we know each other.Few months back,we were good friends.Joking and laughing.I still remember yr last word of concern on me.”You okay?” Bet you have forgotten it.Then,came that stupid incident that have landed us being less than a friend.I was honest and you,loyal to your friend.I didnt get you at first.I was angry.But never did i hate you.You spouted tons of vulgarities on me.Still,i did not rebel.I love you,as a friend.Now that im seeing you in all these troubles,i feel like really talking to you.Helping you.But im very sure,your ego will disallow me from doing so.So,I just want you to know that i’ll be right here whenever you need me.But please,can i see the caring guy that i’ve seen before?Can you come back?I miss being your friend.Reminding you about things.Teasing you.Helping you as far as possible.Lastly,im sorry if i have ever caused any unpleasant feelings towards you.

Love,your friend

I wish to understand them.

Shahirah McCreery — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 11:59:22 +0000

walk with me

After reading Torey Hayden’s Beautiful Child, im more inspired than ever to go into counselling.I want to help people get out of their sorrows,into all the happiness that they deserve.Ever since i don’t know when,I just have an interest in Social Work.I find it fun and the best part is that im contributing to society.I want to help them re-discover themselves and realise what life really is.Like Venus Fox in Beautiful Child who found her inner value and who managed to life life the way she never dreamt off.But,im afraid that if i cant succeed in changing them positively,i might just go astray.Its always nice to help others when you have the confidence that at the end of the day,you’re winning the battle with them.But on the other hand,if you just cant drag the person out from thier world of miseries,you might just end up being one of them.That’s the only thing that discourage me from going into counselling.Other than that,im going to try to work towards my dream and till then,Gambateh everyone!

From past to present to future.May friendship behold.

Shahirah McCreery — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 02:49:39 +0000

It was my first day in Evergreen Primary School. I didnt cry like the other kids did but instead,i was full of joy and excitement.I did’nt know what is awaiting me ahead,in my six years there.I joyfully skip to the class that im assigned to.Many were teary and emotionless.Probably wanting to go home or wanting their parents by their side.All but this special girl,Jia Wei.

Like me,she was as happy as a lark.I could feel a bond between us.Unfortunately for her,she had’nt been too well to walk for too long.She sits in a wheelchair most of the time.I pitied her but not long after.Pity evolved to love and frienship just like a caterpillar changing into a butterfly.We became the best of friends.We never failed to top the class in English every semester.High-fiving was our forte.

Fate brought us closer as we continued to grow together in the same class each year.We learnt alot during the six years in primary school.We managed to grab a handful of values when leaving.In primary two,a new friend joined us.She was non other than Tiffany.I remembered the times when we helped each other out academically.

Our favourite hangout place was at the ramp near the carpark where Jiawei’s dad always fetches her.Joy,laughter and tears we held there.Of course there were times when our friendship bittered.Nevertheless,we tried to understand each other and solved the problems.

At primary five,something happened to Jiawei.Her health deteriorated.Tiffany and I would constantly stay by her side.We would give her our bests of advice.We would try to help her catch up in all that she missed in school.She managed to return to school by the time we were in primary six.

Still,we did our daily routine of laughing,coaching and playing.I missed those times.Though we had gone through alot of tears and obstacles,look at us now.We are three of a kind.We’re still staying by one another though we are in different school.

So,to Jia Wei and Tiffany.I hope to share more joy with the both of you.If possible,till the end of our lives.

Love,your friend,Shahirah =)

broken promises lead to a bleeding heart

Shahirah McCreery — Fri, 29 May 2009 06:07:28 +0000

Friends.They say,’Friends Forever’.But now,im starting to not believe in this quote.I always thought that we will be together and never part.We even made a promise but look at us now.One is off with a new clique.The other is losing her grip in my life because she thinks that im the cause of this unsuccessful long friendship.The only one left,which i hope,won’t go out of this friendship abruptly like the others did,its still hanging on.Look at me now,im such a loser.I always lived my life on a belief that my friends will help me in times of need and share the joy with me in times of happiness.I wished that those 3 friends will tell me my weaknesses and strength but before they did,they left. Leaving my heart wounded,bandaged with a thin layer of love.I never imagined that my friends would do this to me but then again,who am i to judge my life.All im hoping now is that those friends who still have part of their heart to spare for me to forgive me and love me.If that is impossible,forget me.I don’t want a jinx like me to be remembered by you.Im drained out emotionally and physically……..so please.Don’t make my heart decompose beacause by then,I guess,I won’t need anymore love from anyone.